Recently, I have been passing through multiple experiences to rethink the concept of home. As I mentioned in my last personal venting, I went back to Brazil for a couple of weeks. I was born there, my parents are there, but is it my home?
I stayed all this period at my parent's home, the same place that I spent most of my life, between 1989 and 2012 ( when I got married). It is a lot of time, but as I mentioned, it is my parent's home, not mine anymore. I don't feel more comfortable in my own place, where I can do anything that I want. For real, even living with my wife I can't do everything that comes in my mind LOL. But anyway, I had the feeling that I don't belong there anymore, and not just inside that place, but also in that city and country. I am not used to driving there anymore, I don't feel comfortable. I don't feel comfortable walking there anymore. My only thinking was "when am I going to come back home?". I took three flights until I get home, when I saw that wing from the Air Canada airplane, it gave me some comfort that finally I was heading home. The place where I have my routine, the place where I can open a drawer and know what I have there, finding all the kitchen utensils.

The wing from my flight coming home

It is relaxing to arrive home. Some people think that I am crazy. I came back to a winter of -10 degrees Celsius after being in a place with 35 degrees Celsius temps. But I think that hot temperatures are even worse than colder temperatures since I can't use any specific clothes to help me with that. However, there is another dilemma coming about home. I got a new job, and I will move west to Alberta, 4,000 km of distance. I am a little bit sad that I will need to leave this place that I have already established as a home. But I guess I have all the tools to make the new place my new home and my new point of comfort. Moving and organizing the new home is stressful, but I will bring my wife, my two daughters, and also personal belongings that will help transform it into my new place to call home.
When I bought this current home, I had the wrong idea that it would be mine forever home. However, there are some other variables that I had to take into account, such as job opportunities. Now for this next step, I know that even if the new home is in the perfect spot, the best neighborhood, I can't consider it as my forever home, because we still didn't find our forever jobs.
Even wanting so bad a place where I know that I will stay until I get old, I know that it is possible that the next place it isn't. So home right now for me is the place where I currently feel comfortable and safe with my family. Currently is here in Moncton, but soon it is going to change.
One thing I know is that virtually I feel comfortable here in Hive, especially at the Pizza community where I am sharing and meeting new friends every day! Maybe soon I will meet personally some of them!

The window of my home